Colors Of The Mind #13
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There was a time I was nervous about everything. I worried about everything. I was sad about everything. Life, for me, operated from the negative.
Anxiety attacks happened ever so often, triggered by the obsession to achieve and deliver. The attacks came in the form of intense feelings of fear, life lasting doom, foreboding and gloom.
Anxiety — A mental health disorder characterised by feelings of worry, anxiety or fear that are strong enough to interfere with one’s daily activities. (Sources: Mayo Clinic)
My anxiety was a regular fit and it would leave me mentally paralyzed for weeks. On bad days, even breathing was difficult.
One day however the routineness of it all made me realize…
Every problem has an expiry date. No matter how big and world ending it might seem at the time, in time, it all just fades away.
Getting past that dark space though, is a practice and requires intentional effort. It IS a battle but one worth taking to ensure you enjoy the most out of this life that God has blessed us with.
For me, a gentle reminder that I am not alone even when I feel lonely helps. Yes, we have family and yes, we have friends but sometimes they can be the source of our anxiety… God is my constant companion because He cares for the intricate details of our life and He is always fixing our path as we go.
*Inserts favorite bible verses*
Before I was born the Lord called me; from my mother’s womb he has spoken my name. — Isaiah 49:1
Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. — Luke 12:7
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your god. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. — Isaiah 41:10
Because of this blessed assurance, I go through life knowing God will never leave me nor forsake me. When I get anxious, I simply count my blessings and look at how far I have come bearing in mind that there was a time I couldn’t see past what I thought was my biggest problem… and I know this too shall pass.
Bio: Nandi Bwanali is a young Malawian woman on the adulthood train trying to figure out the best way to live, through trial and error. Her interests are all things “Africa and development”, obsessing over random knowledge and healthy living.